Dreams Barely Being alive...

I didn't go out much. That is because there is no one I want to share with. I would rather go out and have fun with someone I like/love. I am getting tired of being just me. Last night, I read one of my DW stories. Yep, I wrote it. That story is kind of personal and sort of sad story. I am sort of frustrated that I noticed with the stories I wrote... some of them already appeared in actual DW shows. I am trying to understand how they got my ideas. That are all before the show happened. You see. I wrote them on my laptop so I stopped. They stopped. I do really want to finish some more but I can't with that laptop. I do not know how they got them. I feel sad and cheated by that. That mean I have to write on paper in which I used to be doing. The problem is that paper will not have auto spelling checker and few other features. Sigh. I do not want my new stories to be robbed again. Only I can do is just drawing/doodling. I bought rubber stamp that had image of the TARDIS. I stamped and then use water colors to paint.

I don't know what else to do right now. My heart still want to write more but I'm in fear that someone will find a way to take it away from me again like with my stories I typed. I feel like I have no one to trust about it.

Doctor?

I dreamt of Doctor.

I actually smiled when I saw him.

I'm also feeling sad. Why did I see him? Curious.

Anyway, trying to create template of the tenchcoat is bit hard but I am getting it. Before I could cut the fabric. I will use old fabric or something as test to make sure it work.

The body of Doctor figure wasn't like Ken figure (Barbie's "boyfriend") When I carefully removed it from the package, the body is flexible that I almost can't keep it straight to stand. Golly! Also there is no "adjustable" for the shoes to stay on, bit loose. Bit strange to see shoe that big. What the heck is that? Its upper chest is bit big too as if he has "6-pack abs". Clothes on it are looking good but only thing is bothering me is size of pocket flip which looks bit big. Oh yes, hands are bit big too. Hmm...